If you want to read a compelling story of courage and discovery set in Rwanda, I urge everyone to read Woman in the Mists. Due to relatively recent events, whenever Rwanda is mentioned, it is easy for people to think about the seriously grave and senseless genocide that took place between the hutu's and the tutsi's. Woman in the Mists, however deals with another important global issue that has manifested in Rwanda--conservation. The book details the life of Dian Fossey, an American self-trained zoologist who photographed, observed, and wrote about the rare silverback mountain gorilla.
In addition to her zoological observation, Dian was an ardent conservationist and advocate for the silverback. She established what is know known as the Dian Fossey Gorilla Fund International in 1978 in order to stop poachers from hunting the silverback and to conserve their habitat. Many of you may remember the life story of Dian when Sigourney Weaver played her in the movie, Gorillas in the Mist.
I read the book in high school, and was struck by this woman's love for these animals. I believe that she was among the first (if not THE first) people to take be photographed touching a gorilla in the wild. She obviously saw a beauty in these creatures. And the saying, however cliché, remains true--beauty is in the eye of the beholder. But I am beginning to wonder, in the eyes of the gorilla, was Dian Fossey a thing of beauty? Based on her conservation efforts, I would suspect the answer is yes. But I guess my more general question is, do gorillas see humans as attractive?
Last week I had an opportunity to find out. I, like Dian Fossey, am an animal watcher. I often see them online and hear them ranting and making noises on gay telephone chat lines. But this past week, I had an opportunity to meet with the GORILLA--a guy that I used to have sex with occasionally about four years ago. He is a dark-skinned brotha, with dark marijuana lips, a gorilla-like face, and a body that's not so nice. But, he has one of the fattest dicks in the city of Chicago. We had sex about 4 or 5 times--but then something happened. Instead of coming over, everytime we talked on the phone he would be rude, or insist on bringing a third party over. Then there were times that he would tell me that he was coming over, and then he wouldn't show up and wouldn't call to explain. After that started happening repeatedly, I stopped taking his phone calls.
A year later (last week), he hits me up online (not knowing that it's me) saying that he wanted to hook up and get busy. I've been in a dry spell lately, and I knew that GORILLA was packing serious pipe, so I invited him over. I didn't tell him who I was, I let it be a surprise. And when he showed up--that's what he was. SURPRISED.
He was really enjoying my body and telling me how nice I looked. It felt great--especially seeing that in the four years that had passed, he was looking not-so-cute. We went on and fucked and the sex was acceptable. It definitely hit the spot. But a lot of stuff was missing. Like the fact that the GORILLA was ugly, and on top of it, wasn't that skilled sexually.
After sex, GORILLA was real cool and friendly. Which was a first. In the past he was always in a rush to leave and somewhat cold. But now, he was trying to make conversation after sex. And then he started talking about my looks. He said, I just can't believe how you've tightened your body up. I mean your face is really the same, its just your body is better. I mean you used to be heavy and not so attractive to me. But now I think you're a dime.
My mouth dropped to the floor. I had never been that heavy. And even at my heaviest, I was a lot better looking (and weighed less) than his ass. In the past, I could never understand why he would give me the run around when it came to having sex. And now, I realized it was because he thought he was hotter than me.
Since our hook up, GORILLA has been calling me trying to reconnect. But I'm over him. And he's pretty much admitted that he is being shallow (which I can respect) and is now interested in me because I am in better shape. But there is still a part of me that thinks, how dare he say that I wasn't so attractive 4 years ago. If he thought he was too sexy for me 4 years ago--then he's sure as not now.
He should'a hooked up with me when I was calling him in the past. But he didn't. So now I get to shout my favorite Ricky Lake Show topic headline, At first I was fat, and now I'm all that! Fuck him. Dian Fossey's gorillas weren't so picky--so why am I getting all the ones with attitude?
I noticed that you didn't say that the sex was good in the past. So other than the fact that he had a fat dick, what made you hook up with him and keep calling 4 years ago.
Posted by: That Dude Right There | Wednesday, 16 November 2005 at 09:29 AM